Posted by JohnDoenut on June 19, 2003, at 16:05:11
Hello people. I think I went over edge last night.
I have been having a hard time at work and I finally cant take it anymore.
I called in sick and I went to see my pdoc and he said he would
support me taking med leave of absense or something.
This would be great to relieve my stress from there
and give me time to work things out in life.
However I will still hate that place and dont want to go back.
I want to find some other type of work to do.
This will take time though and will be hard.
But the alternative will be mental death.
I was quite stoned last night (new med strategy!)
and as happens it helps lift away my fear.
And I felt like that guy in office space.
Why cant I do that everyday? Just stop being afraid? That is my plan. To just free myself
inside. To allow all that is inside me to come bubbling up in an explosion of creativity and positive things.
I said I felt disconnected from myself and I think
thats partly because I have no real challenge
at work creatively and little energy to do so outside of work.
Part of my problem with work is that I am so terribly bored. Its a professional job not McDonalds or anything. This inevitably seems to be the problem with all my jobs. I work out in
the morning and play loud music and ratchet up the
excitement and stimulation factor (part of the
ADD thing!) but when I get to work its so dull
by comparison. I need to be a race car driver
or something with that level of stimulation
to keep me interested.J
poster:JohnDoenut
thread:235162
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