Posted by Mariposa on June 4, 2003, at 19:20:27
In reply to my mom died june 3rd, 2002 and i forgot:mariposa, posted by lil' jimi on June 4, 2003, at 16:25:17
> (((mariposa and my other firends))))
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> i encountered an old friend who wished me well and expressed her condolences as she mentioned she knew it was the anniversary .....
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> i did not know what she was talking about AT ALL.
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> i hardly ever see darla any more ... we used to work together, years ago .... hadn't seen her in months ..... yet she remembered so thoughtfully what i had completely forgotten ...
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> my folks had a car accident one year ago yesterday and my mom died immediately.
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> my failure to get over this has been THE reason i was diagnosed with depression and why i am on lexapro .... we could wish that this oversight might mean i was getting better .... i'm wishing!
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> but i am just this moment absorbing the impact of my friend bringing me back to .....
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> how much it hurts ....
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> No, i'm not really all that much better, now that i've begun to try to dwell on it.
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> dad was 83 and mom was 81 .... my sibs and i had tried to prepare for the inevitable, but .....
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> the auto accident that took mom took another week before dad died from his injuries ..... he suffered miserably that week, never regained anything like conversational lucidity at all.
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> as bad as the shock of losing them that way was, it was all the worse for me because i had issues with my mom ..... still.
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> a year ago today i was catching a plane to florida from texas ....
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> i'll share more with you later .... when i can get up for it better...
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> thanks for listening, friends,
> ~ jimI am so sorry to hear of your loss. Loosing parents both in a car accident....so sudden and unexpected. I know we all try to prepare for the day when a parent leaves us. In my case Dad was diagnosed w/rare form of brain cancer, got chemo, and died within the year of DX. So I knew he would go as I watched my Dad decline so rapidly. And yet I was not ready for that day (Valentine's Day - no longer for lovers, now for mourners) and to this day 13+ years later it is still painful. He never got to see me graduate and get a decent job, and because I was such a "bad kid" growing up I really needed to prove to him I had changed.
If I may without seeming insensitive (because I REALLY am concerned, for you and for myself and others) ...... Do you think it was the Lexapro that has Made you forget? By that I mean are we all under the influence of a drug that mutes your emotions and feelings, makes you "forget" your trials and tribulations under a fog of chemicals??? How can we deal with our problems if we are not "bothered" by them????\
Take Care ~ 8|8 <<<< my attempt at buterfly
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