Posted by bobby on May 30, 2003, at 8:16:35
In my dream, I went to Texas and found the college that she went to.I went to this house and asked this girl if she remembered Stacy Anne.She started to cry and ran away.I followed her and put my arms around her---it was a strange comfort zone. Then she kissed me(don't tell my wife)and gave me some photos and a year book with sar in them (she looked exactly like i pictured her). All her friends wished me well as I got in my car to go home. But i felt alone and a profound sense of loss. Then the alarm woke me up. I seem to have becomed obsessed with this sar thing. I spend an embarrassing(sp?) amount of time going over her old posts. I'm sort of glad that i never met her in person for i would have surely let her ruin my life. Anyway, I can't seem to stop thinking about her( and charles bukowski,and dream enterpretation(sp?),and drugs, and alchohol, and books, and hospitals, and free pdocs,and strip clubs, and pretty rope, and blah blah blah....Do I have some new disorder for me? something seems wrong and i can't fix it. I guess,in time, things will return to normal---hopefully. I pray that she's in a better place.
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