Posted by Dinah on May 27, 2003, at 8:24:30
In reply to Re: Cutting, looking for answers.... McPac » Eggy, posted by katia on May 27, 2003, at 0:55:17
I'm going to have an uncomfortable session today explaining things to my therapist. He's not terribly happy with me. I called him before I did anything, like I'm supposed to. But it's hard to explain how intensely nonverbal the feelings are. I tried to express myself to him, he said something not particularly helpful like "That's not the best way to handle your feelings" which, along with my total inability to express my feelings, caused me to say something to downplay the whole thing, in effect misleading him.
But how do you get someone who hasn't experienced to understand that you did try to express yourself in words. But that words are hard to come by when you're in that mood. And that even if I had been thinking clearly, words are inadequate to express the feelings. It's all so frustrating because no one gets that. No one gets that when I try to get help before I cut, that I'm just incapable of finding the words, of saying them right. Maybe I need some sort of easily remembered code word. A very wise friend suggested "help" and I think I'll suggest that to him today. But I don't even know how to begin to describe what "help" encompasses, even now that I have more access to words.
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