Posted by mmcasey on April 28, 2003, at 18:10:38
In reply to Re: I need some encouragement!, posted by coral on April 28, 2003, at 14:28:51
Well I am sighing right now... I feel ever so slightly better than before. Why does every day have to be so filled with torment!!?? I did in fact put in a call to my soon-to-be-gone therapist, which made me feel both better and worse.
But I know what everyone says is true... that we really just have to take one step at a time and put one foot in front of the other and all of that. It is not impossible, just very very hard! But if I give up/in, and I do kill myself, then I will never know what could have been. Is risking misery for years and years worth the hope of a brighter future, or a few bright spots within the dark and torturous days? I don't know, but it is the question that I struggle with every second of my existence.
I realize that I am sounding quite dramatic right now, but it is honestly the truth of how I feel and think. I am very glad to have discovered this forum, because it does help me see that I am not alone, and get some support and assistance. Without the fear I have in my "real life" of shame and embarrassment and stigma if I tell the truth about my horrid feelings of despair. Here, I do not have to worry about that, so I can be up front and honest.
Thanks to everyone on this board.
...and so I continue to go on....
Meghan
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