Posted by Ginjoint on March 3, 2003, at 20:02:46
In reply to Re: Help! / Ginjoint, posted by kara lynne on March 3, 2003, at 14:29:36
Hi kara lynne,
Don't worry, your posts aren't too long! You say what you need to say, and that's just fine.
I'm 36, and under a ton of pressure from my mother to have a child. I'm also under a ton of pressure from myself...I would love nothing more than a family. This pressure weighs down on me and grinds into me all day, every day. If I don't manange to get pregnant, I will look into adoption of older children, or even foster parenting. This issue is of enormous importance to me. May I ask, how old are you? Remember that more and more women are able to get pregnant later in life. It might take some special help, but it can and does happen. My attitude has always been, if you wait until everything's "perfect" to have a kid, you'll never have one. I know how happy a child would make me, and I know I could care for it well. I bet you could too. I kind of know how you feel when hearing of your ex's children -- right now my own pdoc is on maternity leave with her third child, a girl. She now has two boys and a girl and a loving, intelligent husband. This is going to sound so small and trite, but I had a very difficult time during her pregnancy and afterwards...maybe I'll talk about that in some other post.
Depression has screwed my life eight ways to Sunday. It reminds me of a line from an Indigo Girls song - "I missed a million miles of road I shoulda seen." I feel sometimes like it's my fault my life has gone so far from plan, but depression clouds everything. It's like swimming in a cold, murky loch, and after a while you just get TIRED. My pdoc reminds me to cut myself some slack for that; that people with other diseases are often sidetracked too. Still, it's hard not to be kind of frustrated and even bitter.
Families come in many shapes, sizes, and colors now, kara lynne. I hope I find my family, and I hope you do too.
Ginjoint
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