Posted by jodie on March 1, 2003, at 18:40:12
In reply to Re: I am going to do some complaining!!!, posted by Dinah on March 1, 2003, at 2:53:27
I was told over a year and a half ago that I have bipolar disorder, they didn't specify which. I am now being told that I have ADD instead. I have been doing some research on the internet about having both disorders. I mentioned it to my pdoc last time I saw her. She agreed that I "may" have both. She said on my next visit she may add a mood stabilizer. When I had the diagnosis of bipolar, I tried a couple of different mood stabilizers (depakote & lithium) and tried different AD's, and of course the Klonopin (1 mg daily) for my "fits" & anxiety. Now that my diagnosis is ADD, I'm taking Adderall 40 mg's a day, supposed to be taking Paxil CR but I quit. I freaked myself out by all of the horror stories I read. I only took it for a couple of days. I was having headaches & nausea from it too. I am still taking Klonopin. I know I shouldn't have stopped my AD, I think thats why I've been feeling so down. My pdoc isn't going to be very happy with me.
I am taking 2 mg of Klonopin a day. I'm taking that for my anxiety plus seizure control. I had a grand mal seizure the first week of January. That was my first one in 8 years. I have Temporal Lobe Epilepsy. When I have a TLE seizure it usually causes me to have strong deja vu feelings, depersonalization, and other bizzare symptoms. I'll have them in clusters then they go away for a while. I started having these seizures when I was in my pre-teen years. I would have several of them a day for maybe a week. It would go away for a month or so then start up again & the cycle continued. I didn't tell anyone when I would have these seizures. I had no idea I had a form of epilepsy. I thought if I told someone, they would think I was insane & put me away. The day after I had my son I had my first grand mal seizure, and my husband(at the time) found me & called an ambulance. I spoke with a neurologist, who also ran many tests. I explained to him the "episodes" that I had been having. I was finally given the diagnosis of TLE. I was put on Dilantin & took it for a couple of years. I hated the side effects, so I weaned myself off of it. I was seizure free until the beginning of this year. I haven't really had any problems since increasing the Klonopin to 2 mg in January.
Sorry to give you my whole health history. I sometimes have a hard time stopping once I get started.
It is hard to explain to people that sometimes my moods/emotions don't have a reason. I guess it would be hard for someone to understand if they've never experienced it, especially on a regular basis.
I was in a really bad mood when I started this thread. I went back and read my post, & almost don't remember doing it. I was in the middle of one of my "fits" slamming doors, crying, yelling, pacing. I'm surprised I didn't damage the keyboard, I remember I was typing really hard.
Well, thanks for listening & being supportive. I really appreciate it!!!
Take care...talk to you soon.
Jodie
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