Posted by jodie on February 18, 2003, at 18:44:31
In reply to Re: Why I am full of hate, guilt, shame, depression.. » jodie, posted by noa on February 18, 2003, at 11:19:23
Thanks for reading, I know it was a long post to read.
It's so nice to have such caring/supportive people here.
Family secrets.......there were so much more, I just told a shortened version. I sometimes think, now that I am out of my parents house, and that I am older, the things from the past will quit bothering me. Just when I think "oh well, life goes on, my past isn't affecting me now", I'm wrong. I will go through phases where I have reoccuring dreams about when I was young, and the family secrets, and losing friends from being a habitual liar. The lying thing, I'm pretty much over that, although once in a while I will catch my self thinking of a lie I could tell someone. And there will be no reason behind it. One of me ex-therapist told me I used to lie so much, to feel accepted. Of course she gave me a much longer explanation.
Thank you for the support, it means a lot to me.
I will be coming out with the sequel soon!!! I just know when I talk about it, I start crying. It's hard to see the keyboard then. I'll tell the rest when I'm in a better mood (if that ever happens).
Jodie
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