Posted by beardedLADY on January 7, 2003, at 19:15:24
Well, folks, I'm done. It's over. I've been forked, as they say in the culinary world.
I liked being able to post once in awhile, say something controversial or not, support someone who was having a rough time, get support when I was in hell.
I liked people's quirkiness, their language, their sweetness, their honesty.
But I had slowed down on posts because every time I said something that could be interpreted several ways (and many things can be interpreted several ways--I mean, was I being sincere when I said verbs are better than nouns?), someone would post that I was being cruel or send me a private e-mail admonishing me for it.
So just when I thought it was safe to go in the water, I went and did it again--said something that was taken completely wrong.
And I just wonder why others would think I'm one of those posters who is intentionally cruel.
Other people have been through it and know what I'm talking about. Being misunderstood is pretty common when you're posting. I wonder if there's a person on this board who hasn't had it happen or who has had it happen and has actually meant to be cruel.
This whole thing is just very distressing to me. This is SO not who I am. No one I know in real life would call me insensitive or mean or nasty or cruel. In fact, most people think I'm funny and caring and helpful.
So I can't be here anymore. There is too great a discrepency with my persona here (to some people) and my real-life personality. And I'm not much of a risk taker, so I can't risk the damage to my self-esteem. I already feel like crap because two people on this board were hurt by something I didn't even think would hurt. I just don't think that way.
So thanks for all you've done. I'm erasing all my stuff and not looking back here again. I hope everyone has a healthful and happy year, that all your meds work, that all the people in your lives are lovely, that no one hits rock bottom, and that those who are there find relief soon.
And I mean that from the bottom of my very small heart. (Small is healthy, and my heart is very healthy.)
beardy
poster:beardedLADY
thread:34786
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