Posted by noa on December 31, 2002, at 9:45:56
In reply to More about work/picking good work, posted by bookgurl99 on December 28, 2002, at 0:22:05
I'm kind of in this phase, too. Not so much with the job, but with the "groove" thing, or shall we call it the "rut" thing.
It seems to be a stage when you are stabilized in treatment enough that the just surviving the hassle of getting up and going to work and doing your job and taking care of the basics at home all starts to be not enough. The fact that you are bored and feeling the need for a change is a sign of improvement (so says my own therapist to me).
But it is a hard stage, nonetheless. It is not like you suddenly realize you want more and you also have this wonderful energy to go with it and you can cast off the shackles and go out and live. It is much harder than that. For me, anyway. I am bored with the survival routine and need more, but the initiative isn't there yet.
I, too, wonder about the apathy, could it be in part caused by my medications. But I am not in a place to change medications right now.
I also have been exploring the psychological aspects of the apathy and intertia--you alluded to the self-limiting thoughts, etc. Me too. Also, being more in touch with the self-hating thoughts that lurk beneath and get in the way of enjoyment.
But I'll continue to work on all of this, hopefully it will get better.
Would it help if we started a support "group", ie, we talk about some small goals to get us going and then report back on how it feels when we try them?
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