Posted by bluedog on December 25, 2002, at 12:51:04
In reply to Re: so quiet..ahhhhh » bluedog, posted by dreamerz on December 25, 2002, at 11:36:30
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> > Ps. Did you really spend the whole day on your own? Just you and your cat....purrrrr with no other obligations?
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> Yep..--I have 2 close platonic friends--who are there if needed or if they need me. I like being isolated.
> I've broke almost free from the family--It was needed to begin to get well .
> Some families think they're helping by nagging/arguing or maybe they blame themselves if the children are depressed--don't understand how to react and don't say the right things...
> Enjoy the rest of the day.
> kissy kiss.Your right, the worst thing they say is "we've failed as parents", or my brother will tell me that "I'm making my parents unhappy"
When I tell them that it's not their fault and that thet are responsible for their own happiness they tell me I've been brainwashed by my psychiatrist and that they can't be happy unless I'm no longer suffering from depression.
As for my social anxiety they deny such a condition even exists and insist that I am very charming around everyone at social functions. Thet can't believe that I have to fight off the constant urge to scream and run away and go home where I can find peace and be myself with just my doggies for company. They also have not seen me around members of the opposite sex that I find attractive which I'm sure is something extremely comical to watch from a purely objective point of view.
Funny thing is that my closest friend is an extremely attractive and intelligent female (she used to be a model in New York, Paris and Milan before quitting and going to law school at university which is where where I met her) but we had a special and close (platonic) relationship from the first moment we met and I still discuss everything with her and she never judges ne. I've always connected better with females (except those that I'm attracted to) which is very weird considering my social phobia.
Maybe it's because I'm not a beer swilling, football loving, arrogant male that I can't find a romantic partner of my dreams? (yes I did read your previous post of dreaming as an outlet!!!) Maybe it's because I'm just god damned ugly?
Please tell me if I'm freaking you out and I will stop with all this nonsense immediately!!!
I passed on your kissy kiss to my dogs and they really enjoyed it. It's 2.30am in the morning (the day after christmas) and I'm now signing off for the night to get some sleep.
Thankyou and double extra warm regards from
bluedog
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