Posted by Peter S. on December 19, 2002, at 16:17:55
I was reading the above posts by Rach and Alara and I totally empathize with you guys!I've been looking for work for the last 2 months and have had interviews for jobs I'm totally qualified for but inevitably I screw up. I know why- it's extreme performance anxiety, depression, low self esteem, and total self-sabotage. Either I come off with very low energy (depression) or I appear very anxious. I'm also desperate for work which doesn't help.
Went for an interview this am- using adderall to counteract my low energy. My energy was up but I was pretty anxious and actually was shaking. Anxiety also produces an interesting phenomenon where I put my foot directly in my mouth. I walked out with a negative feeling.
I'm filled right now with extreme frustration and anger at myself- Uggh!
I hate to do this but I feel I have to find the right chemical recipe so I can perform. Maybe I should mix adderall with Xanax and add a beta blocker?
Any words of wisdom for those who have found a way to interview when anxious or depressed?
Now if you'll excuse me I must go bang my head against a brick wall.
Thanks!
Peter
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