Posted by BeardedLady on October 13, 2002, at 9:07:02
Worked like a dog (typed god accidentally!) yesterday to prepare for this big party. Was totally stressed. Food that was supposed to be ready at 4:15 hadn't been started yet by the restaurant who was catering, but it was ready at 5:00, which is when the party started.
Spent the day stressing out about whether it would rain, and was finally able to relax when folks started to come. A band played in our alley, and all the neighbors were there helping.
I drank two Bailey's and sodas and four to six beers. Sang one verse of "To Sir, With Love," which everyone said sounded good and torchy, though I felt I probably sucked the big one.
Folks helped clean up, and I went to bed around 1:00 a.m., the latest I've been to bed in more than five years. I woke up at 4:15 to pee, and the ceiling started spinning, I got the sweats and felt sick, and then I ran to the guest room where I couldn't get comfortable and never went back to sleep. My heart was beating out of my chest for two hours.
Now I feel like crap, having slept just three hours and drunk so much, and I'm having that oh-no-I'm-never-going-to-sleep-again anxiety that I get when I have nights like this (which I haven't had for a year, actually).
So, while I know this was a night with extenuating circumstances, I'm still terribly upset with my not being able to fall back to sleep after lying in bed for three hours (I usually fall back to sleep before two hours when this happens on other nights), and I'm worried that I won't be able to fall asleep tonight.
I am damned tired. Plum tuckered out. I had such a good time last night (and I looked really good, too, for a change, and laughed a lot!), yet I'm here feeling sorry for myself. I even got tons of presents from folks who shouldn't have brought anything. Wendy sent me a fab book (a formal thank-you is forthcoming!), and I got lots of cool earings and hats and stuff.
So I have these great, wonderful friends--about thirty-five people, all tolled--and I'm sitting here feeling sorry for myself about my sleep.
What is wrong with me? Any NORMAL person (except my husband and all the rest of my friends) would have trouble sleeping under those circumstances, I tell myself.
BUT I JUST WON'T LISTEN!
HELP!
beardy
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