Posted by mair on July 31, 2002, at 16:38:58
In reply to worn, posted by ensoul on July 30, 2002, at 22:30:58
Like Dinah and Shar, I've felt the way you describe lots of times. Sometimes I realize that, to take myself off the hook, I've been working very hard to convince myself that my kids would be better off or at least as good, without me around. I force myself to imagine how they would react to news that I had killed myself, and this tends to bring me back to a harder reality. Sometimes in the oddest moments they say something or do something that reaffirms for me how much they really do rely upon me and how their view of my usefulness to them is so very different from my own distorted perception. I just know that this is so difficult to see sometimes.
Mair
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