Posted by JohnDoenut on July 8, 2002, at 9:09:19
In reply to Do you ever feel...., posted by Angel Girl on July 3, 2002, at 16:56:13
I was just thinking the other day that I'm 40 and I still don't know where I fit in. I realize I'm not like a lot of people who have their thing and are into that and fit into that. Actually I am into many things and like to do not just one thing so I end up not spending enough time on one particular thing to fit into it or with the people. Its like Im just skimming the surface and am missing something. I dont know. I feel pulled into different directions and cant focus on where I really want to be so I dont get much accomplished. What does that have to do with fitting in?! The nail that sticks up gets hammered down. I dont want to fit in like that. To me being a drone in society is not my idea of fitting in if thats what its about. I'd rather not fit than be a drone. I'd rather hang out with all the other misfits and not-fitters-in than be a drone. :) I remember in late 80s early 90s when suddenly it was cool to not be a part of the crowd. The misfit loner people suddenly had others just like them all around and it was ok to be a geek or whatever you were.
Anyway whats the point? Phil thinks life is pointless. I know some people who said to me that if there was nothing after life then that meant that life was pointless, that the universe was just playing a joke on us. I disagree. I think the point of life is simply life. To be alive. At the very least, most basic, the point is to be alive and experience it. There's more point in what you do (or dont do) too. But at the least if you are aware enough to live in the moment sometimes and not in the past or the future then you get the point. I think life is about moments. There may be a moment when you feel exhilerated and joyous and connected and yet others when you feel terrible, alone, despairing. But that's life. Cliche'd as that may be. I live for the good moments of joy and pleasure and just try to get by the bad ones as quick as I can! I could look back and say yea the last 6 months my general situation has been bad and things dont seem to be getting better but there have been moments to the contrary during all that too.
J
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