Posted by Angel Girl on July 2, 2002, at 15:04:40
In reply to Re: I'm residing in the black hole once again, posted by shar on July 2, 2002, at 11:02:13
> AG,
> You have my sympathy and support. What is your version of the balck hole like? Paralysis, crying, sleeping, crushing pressure?
>
> Shar
SharThe black hole to me is the last step before suicide. The pain in my breaking heart is unbearable and I have no sense of hope that life will ever get any better. It's the feeling that I will never find the love that I've been searching for my entire life and always eludes me. It is the never-ending pain. There is no sleep because that would bring some relief. It is uncontrollable crying and not wanting to endure any more of what my life entails. It's the extreme bottom. It's the point where I can't take any more hurt and the aloneness I feel is deafening. It's the hell below hell. It's a place I know well and have visited several times. It's the point of no return but somehow I've always found a way out. Sometimes it takes days, several long days that seem to last an eternity but sometimes my stay is somehow very short, this happens so rarely. Someday I may never emerge again.
Angel Girl
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