Posted by bookgurl99 on July 1, 2002, at 19:59:53
In reply to Re: about potential of having h.e. » bookgurl99, posted by IsoM on June 28, 2002, at 1:21:27
> I'm glad that you're feeling encouraged by 'talking' with this lady. Do let us know how things go when you see your doctor. It's good to discuss symptoms with someone who's actually had it.
Well, I'm going to visit the endocrinologist tomorrow. I hope she considers my symptoms as _I_ report them. (Neuropsych testing shows me as 'normal,' despite the fact that sometimes I can't operate a laundry machine. People around me see the change, but I had a near-genius IQ before so I guess a decline would be hard to pick out.)Yesterday I wrote out plans for suicide, including date, time, place, method, and music I want played at my funeral. I am sure that the same mechanism that causes a decline in cognition is also contributing to this extreme depression. So I hope that the doctor listens to me, because I can't live and continue in decline like this. If I can be treated and start getting well, I will have a reason to live.
(My big fear, though, is that if I mention my suicidal desires I will be written off as a pych case -- no organic cause for my symptoms will be considered.)
Anyways, pray for me or whatever it is you do. I could use an open-minded, competent doctor tomorrow. :D
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