Posted by Hildi on June 30, 2002, at 10:53:53
In reply to Re:Motivation, Anhedonia, and Meds for ADD, posted by IsoM on June 26, 2002, at 14:03:05
> Thanks, folks, for answering. The medication I take has helped enormously with motivation & anhedonia. I'm not depressed in the least now, I feel very excited by life, & there's *so* much I want to do, learn, make, etc. It's just this one sticky area - making myself start something, that bothers me. Almost like someone needs to stand behind me with a live wire & zap me going - to flick the on switch. Then after I've been going for a while, come along & flick the switch off or reset me for another task.
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> Whatever the moment catches me in, I feel stuck in that mode & mood till I'm tire out. I love the idea of an ADD coach & have tried to find out more what they do but never got enough info when I asked that properly
> explains what they do. Just generalities like 'motivates' the client. Can anyone answer what do they do? Show up on your doorstep & lead you through the day? Phone every hour to check on you, or what? I can work out schedules & plans fine, just can't stick to them.
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> It was better for me when my sons were small & lived at home. It forced me to be organised for them, to schedule myself for them. But with no one to force myself, I tend to let things slip. Maybe I should get a puppy that needs frequent looking after but can't stand a messy house. I think right now, I'd be able to gather enough cat hair from carpet & furniture to make another cat. But when my sons were small, I kept the floor clean enough to eat off as they played on it & would stick anything they found into their mouths. Arrggh! I wish I could twist my leg about & give myself a swift kick in the a$$ (that okay, Dr. Bob?).
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> I have the problem Morgan brought out where I do all sorts of things but never complete most & when I've explored something to the limits of the understanding I can give it, I get bored. The more some subject is explored, the less diversified the focus becomes, & I resent those limitations. I want to know every aspect of what interests me, not just hone in on one area to the exclusion of others. And then to be able to actually accomplish something, the mundane parts of it as well as the exciting parts.
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> I think that's the curse of ADD people. Perhaps only those with lots of money to hire a secretary, maid, & some workers to keep track of & do the mundane tasks are the satisfied ones.Gosh- I thought it was just me! This difficulty starting projects and the inability to stop, once I start, is something I always though was a personal personality/character flaw of mine and comes from my perfectionistic tendencies. (Is this where my perfectionism comes from, I wonder?) What do you take that helps? Right now I cannot muster up the motivation to do anything. I feel apathetic. I hate this feeling.
On good days with the last AD I was on I had motivation, but right now I feel nothing.
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