Posted by ALiI on June 4, 2002, at 3:58:03
I have so much to say but no ability to put it in this form.
I am word idiot and see not how they work together to express such inner blackness.........emptiness.
Hollow. I continue daily to write out checks for bills, go to post office, work in yard, take dog out for walks, and get in calls to pals in support network.....................
All I really want is to hid in bed for two days and not come out but to shower and get cherries, nanners, and other good fruits.
I no longer make sense......I can't follow my words.
Anger.
Despair.
Self loathing.right to give up.
I know my upcoming break from this reality for over two weeks will be a welcomed break by all.
Zinggggg fffffpppphhhhhhttttttttt aaarrghhhhhhh
Today's quote that sums up my feelings about where I stand in this whole life thing: You're ugly and yer mamma dresses you funny.
I'm mentally ill and I just have so little care as to who fucks with me about it anymore. I have little hope of seeing December so for now I only try to make it until plane ride next week.
aliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiwoewoewoeismememe
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