Posted by terra miller on May 28, 2002, at 23:18:23
grrrr. trying to use sarcasm to pull through. or trying to access some anger perhaps. trying to do something to switch out of the "mood is diving south" feeling. it frustrates the heck out of me! depressed as anything. probably because i'm totally not managing my PTSD/agitation/anxiety well at all these days. being depressed makes me so annoyed. i don't want to feel this way, know it's not good/safe, blablabla. i'm so sick and tired of working so hard at coping and keeping myself safe and sane. i haven't had to manage suicidal thinking for a long time!
at least i'm complaining. if i can complain, i know i'm not going to get suicidal. but i don't like being this far down where the suicical thoughts lie. i am SO FRUSTRATED! (sorry for raising my voice.)
terra
poster:terra miller
thread:24823
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