Posted by NancyLee on May 21, 2002, at 21:57:37
In reply to Re: I. Am. Shocked. » Dinah1, posted by Krazy Kat on May 21, 2002, at 10:31:27
OK I am sorry I lost my temper. But that is the nature of my illness. I got up angry today and I had to control my tongue with my daughter before she went to school. I can be nice , then just minutes or hours later you can have a b*tch on wheels. So I apologize to all. I have been having trouble with my meds also and have gotten really out of balance. I just started taking my old meds I was on today on my own because I have been feeling so lousy. I have been getting brain shocks almost constantly for a month from Zoloft withdarwals. So tonight I started my Trazadone, my usual dose of clonapin, and my usual dose of zoloft. I should be straightening out in a couple of days. I have been out of control very impulsive and obsessive lately. I even yell at people who look at me when I am out. I have been challenging everyone that crosses my path. It also didn't help that we had to go through loosing a family friend to cancer last week who was only 38. went to his wake on Sunday and his funeral on Monday. I saw my therapist today and cried the whole time I was there because of my situation with my husband. He is never going to improve and I feel like he died but he is still here so I grieve and grieve with no end in sight. He died several times the day of his accident and I really dont know why they keep bringing people back. I really wish they had just let him go. He would be at peace and me and my daughters would have been able to move on in the business of gtting on with our lives. He isnt a husband anymore, he isnt enven a companion anymore he is just a facade of the man I knew and loved it seems so long ago. I lose my sense of humor and I lose my way navigating through this life. I have gone on long enough....Love You ALL especially anyone who I took that cheap shot at this morning I apologize. (But I really hate newbie ok?) bye for now.....me
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