Posted by Sourceror on May 19, 2002, at 19:43:14
Why do they scream to me so loudly?
Why do I give in to their calls?
When will this all stop?
Why did I have to buy more?
Why did they have to go on sale?
Am I gonna do myself in with this lack of control?
Will I follow through with my contract for safety?
Or will I just blow it off?
Will I let this kill me?
Will I do it by accident?
Do I really care?
Should I just come to the conclusion I am better off dead?
I feel like I will indulge tonight?
Go to the calling.
But how much do I give in?
How strong is the hold they have on me?
I don’t know if I can control myself.
I know I am not in a good place.
I wish there was a good hospital available.
I might consider going if there was.
But I am limited so I suffer.
My hardheadedness may kill me as well.
I just don’t know.
I have started to not care as well.
Why should I worry about how it will affect everyone else?
Why can’t it be about me for a change?
I guess I just have to ride the waves and see what happens.
poster:Sourceror
thread:24109
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