Posted by DinahM on April 23, 2002, at 18:16:25
In reply to Re: Did your nap help? Dinah, posted by Alii on April 23, 2002, at 17:59:52
Yes, Alii, it did help somewhat. What helped even more is that I called my therapist (hey, it's my promise to him not to cut that keeps me from using that way of coping - the least he can do is help me out). He had time right away and squeezed me in. I seem to have wrestled the self injury demons to the ground for the moment.
Yes, it is the same sort of nap. I'm relieved to know I'm not alone in it. You describe it perfectly.
The session was rather amusing in a way. I'm trying to express the self hatred and vicious images of self harm in the same tone of voice that I am thinking them in, which was loud and profane. And out comes this soft quivering voice describing the horrible thoughts. It really irritated me. But try as I might, I couldn't inject any feeling into the account. I always feel like a reporter giving an account of my internal state.
Sounds like you had a difficult session today. I hope it was productive-difficult and not just difficult-difficult.Thanks for your concern,
Dinah
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