Posted by Marie1 on April 10, 2002, at 8:40:45
In reply to Re: Marie returns » Marie1, posted by mair on April 9, 2002, at 17:05:03
Dear Mair and Shelley,
Thank you for the warm greetings. I often thought of you guys too, which is what prompted my return yesterday. I quit posting because I wanted to get past this last time of major depression. I'm doing fine now (still on meds, of course), but this is a bad time of year for me. Two brothers and my parents died around this time of the year. No surprize that I tend to relapse in the spring.
My first reaction to the post regarding Sar was disbelief and anger at whomever would post such a disgusting lie. It's obviously true, however, and my heart aches. I continue to marvel at the depth of feeling I have for Sar (she'll always be "Sar" to me), but I guess it's no different and no less than anyone else who comes into your life briefly, but touches you deeply. Yesterday I was searching for words to describe her, and I think Wendy hit on it when she described Sar as "vulnerable". She was so vulnerable, it came through in all her posts, and so young and, despite her behavior, so innocent. In one of her posts where she said she was homeless - again - I even fantasized about bringing her to live with me and my family, to protect her. I guess that's the mother in me.
Mair, you remembered correctly, I'm the one in the new house and the kids who live to torment their mother :-). The oldest is graduating h.s. in a month - right on time!!- with the help of some sympathetic guidance counselors. The younger one still enjoys those trips to Claire's. As for my therapist, he terminated me, and I still think of him all the time.
I'll probably be re-visiting PSB for awhile. Please let me know how the two of you are doing. Shelley, can you see me waving to you across the Potomac?Marie
ps I'm so glad Kristi checked in. She's the first person I thought of who needed to know about Sar. Kristi, if you read this, please write back about yourself, okay? I think of you often.
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