Posted by lili80 on April 5, 2002, at 1:25:17
all i do when i get bad is try to kill myself or research ways of doing it. I still havent found that website that sells suicide pills. but if at first you dont succeed ....
i feel worthless,
suicide = when a person's pain has exceeded all possible ways to help
i am like that
its a feeling like i just know i will
i just dont know wheni have exceeded my pain
people think that i will do it when i get real upset over something, but that gives me energy and anger so its like i feed off of it cause i am so down most of the timei think most suicides happen when a person gets real quiet and is thinking and knows what they are doing, thats when it is serious.
my therapist has a pager and i would call her when i was bad. she would ask if i would be ok til i saw her next and i would say yes and then i would go see her and think she will fix it when i get there but she doesnt
my last 2 attempts, i didnt call her
lili
not looking for any advice or anything, i am just hurting alot and hey at least i am still telling someone ya know
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