Posted by Ritch on March 17, 2002, at 22:31:04
In reply to Re: train, wreck..alienation? » Ritch, posted by Krazy Kat on March 17, 2002, at 13:32:01
> Mitch:
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> That's the most I've ever seen you post. You are so eloquent and helpful - you just hit everything right on the nose.I just started some SAM-e, BTW. :-)
I really really would like to learn to drive bulldozers or those raspy gravel trucks. Several cousins drive trucks. Several cousins also run bulldozers. Used to go with them to pick up wheat on Indian reservations in South Dakota or cottonseeds in Mississippi (they all hauled feed grains of one kind or another-cottonseed, corn, wheat, etc.) They are also kind of inattentive and hyper and are perfectly happy roaming all over the country. When I sold liquor while I went to college I knew a couple that were truck drivers that both had college degrees. They just used the truck driving to pay the bills-they drove as a team-and the other, when not driving would work on their *books*.>
> I worked in Electronic Publishing for about 9 years (plus some print). I didn't mind the cubicle in my NYC office so much, b/c I had a beautiful view and when I went out for lunch I was in the city I love.Visual stuff makes a BIG difference. By the time I got out of school I was wanting to go for a BFA in graphic design, but I was stuck on a technology track instead. But that's OK. I yam, where I yam.
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> But, the concept always wore me down. I would hide in the closet on Sundays and just hope to fall asleep soon so I could avoid the stress.
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> When I worked for an ad firm, I cried walking up the stairs in the morning.
> Think that would have been a sign, wouldn't you? Well, I was filled with the concepts of "responsibilty" and "loyalty" - not that those are bad, but taken out of context, they can be deadly.
Yes, I have had "signs" like that for a couple of years now. Just continue to ignore them. Need to put money in the 401K. Need some health insurance to pay for meds and treatment. That is the *trick* about the USA and our economy. You don't get "let off the hook" if you are sick. You get fastened onto the moaning wheel of death and you will grind your grain!>
> Now I'm trying (eventually) to buy a small farm in mid-state NY. I thought the isolation of Woodstock would kill me - I have come to love it. I have so much more control over who I see, what I do.
It really all boils down to control and manipulation. If you are lucky to have a sane unmanipulative boss that trusts your judgement and values your work-then things aren't so bad.>
> Tell us about your farm life if you ever feel inclined - I would be fascinated.My family are all a bunch of hayseeds, redknecks, whatever. They all flocked to the cities during WWII to make ammunition. They liked the money, stability, and security and most stayed there. But some wanted to go back, including my parents. I lived in the hills the fist few years (which I barely remember), then we went back to the city. My Dad got paranoid about my sister's friends and drugs and race riots and we moved back to the country when I was 12. My sister hated it-but I LOVED it. One of my favorite (and few) radio stations that I could get was WLS Chicago (in the 70's). I also used to like to listen to "Beaker Street" from the the Little Rock AM clear channel station-can't think of the call letters now.
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> Hope you're doing well.
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> - KK
Not doing too bad, thank you. Things are somewhat lively right now. Nothing really menacing or sad-which says a lot!Mitch
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