Posted by trouble on March 9, 2002, at 14:50:09
Hi y'all,
I don't know if I have a valid complaint or not and would like to hear what you think.
I've skipped therapy the last 2 weeks b/c I'd rather get my mental nourishment from PSB right now. I have been shut down and lonely for a long time, and had come to the same conclusion about myself as the world has: I am a rather cold and self-centered woman who has nothing to offer. I don't believe that anymore. Now I just think the world doesn't want what I got. No wonder I don't fit in, I've been holding everything back in case I meet some humans. My psychologist has been trying to help me for 2 years in the ways that PSB has been helping me in two months! Why should I drive across town to see him for 45 minutes once a week when I can get the same stuff sitting in front of my computer for as long as I need, man? He's fallen behind, and I'm too busy getting well to waste time w/my psychologist. I realize this sounds like a teenage lament about dear old dad.
The community is still a novelty to me, so it's understandable if I've idealized it somewhat. Maybe things will settle down after a while and I'll go back to my therapist. I don't know. We don't have any problems, he's more than competent and I've never said anything even slightly mean to him, but I skipped my last 2 sessions and left enigmatic messages on his answering machine, Monday's was weird, something like, oh well, looks like I'm playing hooky again, I'm sure you have some stock therapeutic method at hand for dealing w/ it, which I'd be interested in hearing if you feel like calling me. I was suprised at how trite and blase I sounded so immediately I tried to undo it by babbling neurotic nicities into the phone, blah blah. He hasn't called and I'm not sure how I'm supposed to feel about that. Any reactions would be appreciated!thanks, trouble
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