Posted by Automated Lady on March 6, 2002, at 7:31:45
In reply to Re: How depression starts, posted by Dave1 on March 4, 2002, at 9:44:53
That's really weird - I'd never even thought about that.
I look back and I know that I have FELT the way I do when depressed (empty, numb, powerless and worthless) since my teens, but for me what distinguishes serious depression from just feeling bad is when I feel those feelings AND stop functioning "normally".
IT's like the ways of escaping from being in pain (self-harm, compulsive eating, sleeping, living life at one remove from reality, avoiding human contact) take me over and I am ruled by them rather than them being useful to me. Does that make sense?
It happened when I started uni because I simply never learnt how to live normally there, or anywhere since. The old patterns were taken away and all the new ones I developed were harmful to me. I am still trying to escape from them. Argh
AL
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