Posted by Penny on March 1, 2002, at 8:20:55
In reply to Re: therapist on maternity leave » Penny, posted by Dinah on February 28, 2002, at 17:11:05
Dinah,
Thanks for responding. Yeah, I'm having quite a few second thoughts about the 'substitute therapist' concept. I mean, I've met her and she's nice enough, but she's not my therapist. And I'm not sure how 'therapeutic' it would be for me to meet with her. I guess my therapist is just concerned that I would have no one to turn to.
I do feel a little better since I have a pdoc I think I can trust. He's my third in three years and I've only been going to him for about 3 weeks now, so... but the difference between him and the other two has (so far) been like night and day. And he encourages me to page him whenever I need him. But, just like with everything else, it's a trust issue and I don't really feel comfortable with him just yet, so I don't know. But I guess I would/could turn to him if I were in crisis mode, since I can. And I'm seeing him weekly right now b/c my meds are not stablized and he says he wants me to become more comfortable with him and to monitor my situation since so much is going on. So I suppose that's good.
I guess I'm really just getting tired of this 'depression' game, and it hasn't seemed to be getting any easier and I'm wondering how much longer I'm willing to wait. While I'm technically 'functioning,' getting through every day is a struggle. And the thought of missing that one hour a week of feeling safe & secure and just getting things out of my head with someone I trust for two months or so is a bit overwhelming. She also recommended a local support group for folks with depression & manic depression, but the meetings are during a time that would make it nearly impossible for me to go. And my best friend has been very supportive but I think I've been scaring her lately with my mood fluctuations, and I'm not sure how much I can depend on her now.
Anyway, sorry this is so long, but I guess I'm just looking for any advice anyone can give on how to just get through this one day at a time.
Thanks.
poster:Penny
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