Posted by judy1 on February 21, 2002, at 10:54:34
In reply to Re: you said I could ask more questions :-), posted by kiddo on February 20, 2002, at 22:22:18
Thank you all for the wonderful insights, I've gained something from each post. I noticed while I was straightening up (at 2am after Gabrielle went down) that I have a huge (maybe over 70 tomes) collection of psych books. That's not even remotely close to my ex- field (research scientist) and just shows how obsessed I've gotten with my illness over the last 3+ years. Which just so happens to coincide with the length of time I've sought psychiatric help and been on 'prescribed' meds versus the street-bought kind. I've asked my therapist if I seem to have gotten worse- he claims no. Both are trying to create a feeling of safety for me- unfortunately I don't feel particularly safe. Which is depressing considering that's the first step and I continue to be stuck there. I agree with Mark that there is no reason to delve into the past, it hurts too much but unfortunately it rears it's ugly head with flashbacks and dissociative spells and self injury. I think I am rambling and perhaps have gotten off subject; maybe instead of asking about transference-counter transference and ego objects, etc. I should just ask can you help me?- judy
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