Posted by NikkiT2 on February 2, 2002, at 14:05:34
In reply to we saw the dr., scary doesn't cover it, posted by creature on February 1, 2002, at 23:33:17
*gives you an enormous enormous hug*
I wish I could give you some great pearl of wisdom, but hang in there... we're ALL here for you when you need us...
Nikki xxx
> update on Rick, my SO
>
> wont know for sure until next wed when all test results are in, but its either
> plasma cell leukemia or multiple Myeloma, both are forms of blood cancer, either way
> he has to have chemo, also has to have 2 more infusions of blood in the
> morning..just had 3 the other day
>
> neither diagnosis is good, "The outlook for plasma cell leukemia is not good"
> and for Myeloma "possibility that some treatments may bring complete remission"
>
>
> I've lost too many ppl in my life, 3 deaths, a divorce, and the loss of my
> mother (though alive she's not all there because of the brain tumor), my father
> is dying too thats a mess because of what he did to me as child
>
> ya know it's been one major catastrophe after another, each one topping the last
> I am in no means exhatrting...(can't spell, i'm exhausted, i'm sobbing, and in
> pain)
> always hated Murphys law...fuck its true
>
> i'm trying...I REALLY AM
> fuck, Rick shouldnt have to worry about me now
> he needs to focus on healing, he needs to lean on me
>
> and Mom during all of this....that BITCH...told her she has to cancel her dentist appt today (only a teeth cleaning) because I needed to be with Rick
> when he went to dr....she had a fit..it's my car, I should have it when I want
> it (she can't drive any more)....not one word of, How is Rick holding up and how about you...then i just cracked up laughing
>
> and today when we got the news...I spent most of the day with Rick and called her in the late afternoon, she berated me....where have you been all day! i lost
> it,screamed at her, jesus mom ...Rick has a life threatning illness
>
> then she calls me sister out of state who just got home from an operation and it's all, poor Ann...i love you so much, i wish i could be there to help
> you, you're such a wonderful daughter, make sure you rest and eat well, you're recovery is the most important thing
>
> so she is capable of empathy...just not with me...WTF is that. WTF
> i'm the one who's taken care of her for 2 yrs now
> she also told me that I won't be in her will....1/2 is going to Ann, the other
> will be spilit up between my daughters
>
> i cant lose another person that I love
> i cant i canrt i cant
>
> lynn
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