Posted by Simcha on January 14, 2002, at 9:22:31
I know that for me some security would help be out a great deal. I've been a contractor for 3+ years now in the Internet Development Biz... The past year or so has had many ups and downs. Lately it seems that there are more downs.
I moved from my beloved Chicago to Iowa because there were no more jobs for me in Chicago and there was this wonderful 2 year contract with an option to become permanent. Well since then, at the end of last year they began to reduce their workforce by 10% through offering early retirement. Well, now that they got that they still need to cut more so people are being given the option of severing relations with the company at a nice severence offering. If they do not get enough volunteers they will start cutting people involuntarily. (Actually they have started this.)
Being a contractor I know that my situation is precarious at best. The thing is that our team has been reorganized into a new department and we have been told that there is plenty of work for us to keep us busy. Ergo... No let go....
The thing is that they have put a freeze on any authorizations to hire. No one knows when this freeze might be lifted. I still have a year and 3ish months to go on my contract. They cannot extend my contract because this company has a rule that you cannot be a contractor for them for more than two years.
I have a long way to go in the contract. I'm trying to envision a positive outcome. I do so want to sign on permenantly here. I moved here for the chance of having stability which I never seemed to have in Chicago. A psychic friend of mine has assured me over and over that I will be with this company many years after most of the people I started with because they realize my value to them. Well, I'm trying to be positive. (This has not been my natural state.) Optimism is difficult for me. I think I'm doing well.
I know that optimism can help me to keep this job and to get a position permanently with this company. I can manifest the goal in my head. If I imagine doom then I can manifest doom (a self-fulfilling prophecy). I'm trying to envision what it will be like to have the stability I seek. I know that it is no panacea. I do know that I do better when I do not have financial worry and I have something to do 5 days per week. I need the structure and the income for my recovery.
Let's face it.. Treatment is not cheap!