Posted by sid on January 9, 2002, at 17:17:57
In reply to Re: fear of depression, posted by pedr on January 9, 2002, at 8:33:24
> Sid, I really envy you in that you can look back on depression in that fashion, that is a position I often dream of. You're living evidence that it can be done. I bet it took a tremendous amount of effort, stamina and tolerance - good work fella.
I am very happy to be at this point. I still have to deal with dysthymia, but I never knew better so far in my adult life, so it's nothing like major depression. It took several years and I was out of patience many times, finding it unfair that I had to make so many efforts just to be able to get up in the morning and not be disappointed to do so. I used to wake up and think: oh no, not another day! Many times I was desperate and thought I'd never get out of this spiral, but somehow, I did. It has been very hard, so I do understand when I read about impatience, helplessness, etc. And I feel for you all. I hope we all get back to some more normal state some day, including getting rid of dysthymia in my case. That would be something. The unfair thing is that our lives are somewhat consumed by this disease; we put lots of time, money and efforts on this, while we could be happier and more productive doing other things. That REALLY sucks. Also, one thing I have not made my peace with yet, is that I wasted my 20's to depression. It's a time of life biolding, experiences, etc., it's gone, and I could not have a normal life. I got a PhD out of this part of my life, but that's it, I didn't have much fun. Better than nothing at all, but I'm somewhat embittered by the fact. Anyway, I hope my future is better, that's all I can hope for.
Wew. There's something off my chest.
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