Posted by akc on January 3, 2002, at 14:35:52
In reply to Re: 2002 » akc, posted by shellir on January 3, 2002, at 13:26:32
> I might rethink this one, akc. You've asked for a lot of help on this board, and I think many people on PSB really *did* come through for you, and actually you did survive.
>
I hope, against hope, that no one took this personally. Many people here have reached out to me and that is so appreciated, and I have probably not stated that enough.The problems all lie within me. And what I spoke of had to do more with my therapist and pdoc, though I saw them both yesterday and we talked about how I lose faith in a time of crisis. When I get so black as I did last month, moving me to a place of safety can be impossible, because I do lose faith. And my faith right now is still somewhat shattered -- I'm living in great fear of another mixed episode, the pain was so great, I'm uncertain how many more I have left in me.
So please forgive me -- you who have reached out to me in my time of need, I can ask for nothing more. My ability to accept that offer for whatever reason, that is my lack of faith, not your unwillingness.
akc
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