Posted by shelliR on December 29, 2001, at 21:52:40
In reply to its been a while ..., posted by fallen sparrow on December 29, 2001, at 10:17:11
> Its been a long time since Ive posted ... I thought my life was okay, I thought everything was better with me ... Im realizing that its not. Im falling back into my old habits, and I don't know how to stop it. Im not eating, Im sick everyday, Im sad, moody, I just want to crawl in a hole and sleep forever. Im falling ... so hard. I CAN'T go through this again, I can't. It was impossible the first time, I don't know how I made it through. HELP ME ................. what do I do?!?!?!?!?!?
> -sparrow-
Wow, I can certainly relate. I am in my second worst depression of my life. I'm 40 something and the last time I was twenty-four.I think knowing that I got out once before (with the help of nardil) helps a little. I don't think ADs are going to be the answer this time, though.
But mostly I am getting by with the help of my family (well, some of it), some close friends, this board, and most of all by the resolve to get through it. I am advocating so hard for treatment, and keep getting kicked in the head because I have not been willing to give up opiates until someone comes up with a better plan for me which I can believe has some chance of success.
I also am having trouble eating, am very weak, and very tired. But once I made the decision to live, I just continue to put one foot in front of the other. (My PB friend Lorraine actually once said that to me and I have adopted it for myself.)
Make a list of all the possible treatment alternatives (ADs, therapy, support groups, etc) and get some feedback on which direction to go to get help, and do it. That's the only thing that I can think of at the moment.
Sorry things are so hard (again), and I'll think of you as I pull for myself.
Shelli
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