Posted by crinn on December 19, 2001, at 7:37:02
In reply to Re: Anger as on/off switch to mania, posted by mgrueni on December 18, 2001, at 17:09:31
Thanks so much, Micha. And you're right. Now it is day 2, the anger has abated, and with it the energy. I hate to admit it, but it was exhilarating while it lasted. But acceptance of the grey moods and pacing myself is probably much more healthy!
> < I was angry all night, didn't sleep (which is typical of my depressions) woke up this morning feeling draggy, but got to work and then--WOW! I haven't had this much energy in months.
> Anyway, anyone else out there experience this? >
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> Yes. I do.
> I even came to *use* this mechanism when I was very down but knew that I had to appear at work the next day. I didn`t sleep on purpose - to provoke a boost in energy. And you are right, the crash is inevitable and I usually feel even worse afterwards. I am not quite sure why, but not sleeping seems to have a paradox effect on me. Instead of making me drowsy and unmotivated it works like a stimulant for me. But only for 8 - 9 hours. And then the crash comes.
> I donīt do that any more because I realised that I harm myself just to be functional at work for a few hours. And that`s not worth it. I think your anger has been a trigger as well. Anger makes our body ready for a *fight* - we mobilize all our *spare energy*. I am not surprised that the combination of both, staying awake almost the whole night plus this anger made you *overactive*.
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> Micha
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