Posted by sar on November 27, 2001, at 15:09:05
In reply to Re: vino and madness-sar, posted by Kristi on November 26, 2001, at 20:04:36
Kristi,
no. he was too much of an ass!
love :),
sar
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> Sar,
> Have you thought about this in another persperctive?
> I mean, like maybe he really likes you..... and was jelous you were spending time with the other guy........
> I just know so many men who don't know how to express their feelings correctly and end up just being a jerk! Do you think it's possible... that he really likes you A LOT..... but doesn't think that you do?
> Probably way off base... but a possibility?! Love, Kristi
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> > okay. what i was trying to convey in my other "vino and madness" message is that i'm worried about all of this anger and the way i'm expressing it. my last pdoc thought that i was extremely angry person repressing it all because i am full of smiles and giggles and niceties.
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> > anyway, the hot medical student with whom i have this sex-deal with came home from vacay last night and called me up. (the sex deal is simply that i'm in charge of it and that (ha ha) we're doing it as kind of a student-teacher thing because he's 5 years older.)
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> > i said i'd come chill for an hour. he bought us a fairly nice bottle of wine, and i sat down in the living room to kind of let him know that i was there to CHILL FOR AN HOUR like i'd said, not anything else. his roommate was in there smoking bowls and chewing snuff. i recently started smoking pot again, so i smoked with rommate-boy and tried some of his snuff 'cos i'd heard it packs a hard buzz.
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> > hot-med boy stalked off to his room, and i didn't follow him because i knew he'd try to bust a move on me and i just wasn't in the mood, you know? now at this point i'd already drunk an entire bottle of wine at home by myself, so i was fairly buzzed, though the pot and snuff chilled me out even more.
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> > hot-med boy came out and stalked downstairs, at which time rommate-boy said "i'm going to bed" and exited. hot-med boy came back up and strated like, *lecturing* me about how he'd bought this wine for *us* (he does pay for alot of nice wines and lunches etc) and how he wanted to see me and just hang out with me, "i *care* about you" blah blah, and into this i was just reading, "he thinks i am naive, he called me over here to fuck me and now he's pissed off--" and he started getting kinda--i don't know, i just couldn't believe the harsh tone of his voice.
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> > then he said, "look, i could be the kind of guy that calls you up at 12:30 and kicks you out 3 hours later, but i'm not." at this point, i was inspired to stand up and try to hit him (he was sitting down). he grabbed my wrists and we struggled for a bit, and finally i got a good hit in. i tried for another one but that one wasn't so good so i put my shoes on and left. i picked up the half-empty bottle of wine to take with me but he said "that's not yours" and grabbed it from me.
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> > so i left and began walking next door to my house when i heard his door open and he threw the bottle of wine across the lawn and shouted "there, isn't that what you wanted in the first place?" i kept walking.
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> > NOW OF COURSE i know why these casual-sex deals don't usually work out and the guy's a *complete* asshole, but this post is really about my own anger and how i express it. this morning i thought that i should have just silently walked out of the house, head held high, but i was so mad that i had to haul off and hit him, scare him, i couldn't even preserve my own integrity because i was so pissed off and drunk besides.
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> > how do you express your anger towards others, especially ones who say stoopid asshole things like that? i felt better for hitting him last night. got it out of my system. now i don't feel very good about it.
poster:sar
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