Posted by mist on November 26, 2001, at 1:37:59
In reply to recurring, navel-gazing fear, posted by Billy Lavorgna on November 26, 2001, at 0:51:53
Don't know if this is what you mean, I feel that i've lost a lot of myself to the point that i wonder if i'm even me anymore. the things i liked most about myself are either long gone or so far dormant they might as well be. sometimes i think it's due to growing older, sometimes i think that it's the times that don't encourage anything that stands out, original, interesting different. I just sort of exist day to day now. I did feel smarter, brighter, quicker, more alive and passionate before. Now I feel like a shadow creature. Don't know if that's the type of thing you were referring to. Hard to explain. -mist
> This is so utterly self-absorbed of me, but I'll proceed nontheless. Every few months, I am plagued by the creeping sense that my intellect and the finer points of my personality are eroding and that I am "becoming stupid". Sometimes I ascribe it to depression, other times to a simple crisis of faith, still other times, to a brain tumour.
> Does anyone else move through times like these? When everything you banked on personality-wise, is no longer available to you, and you become convinced that you're "devolving" somehow?
> It's so bad at present that I am avoiding seeing friends for fear of having to "acquit" myself as an interesting person, when I no longer feel capable of being at all insightful or substantial.
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