Posted by Wendy B. on October 10, 2001, at 13:33:34
In reply to Wendy - what are you up to?, posted by Krazy Kat on October 10, 2001, at 11:32:43
> Just wondering, envying you in the vineyards in this lovely weather...
hey, KK, thanx for asking!ahhh... the romance of the vineyards...
it's actually a lot of physical work, the kind where if you *had* fingernails, they'd all be off by the end of any particular day. 'course i don't have fingernails (i try to play guitar), but there's almost always a bruise somewhere, or a banged thumb. gotta love it...
bucolic moment number 542:
i was recently standing on top of a 20 ft ladder, peering down into a stainless steel tank which holds who knows how many gallons of wine... we were topping up the tank with another wine, to make a chardonnay blend. it's all very interesting. i look into the top of the tank to see when it's full. believe me, the bung-hole ain't that big, you need a little flashlight. and i scream 'stop!' when it's a millisecond from topping over, and it's a riot, somehow. screwing things down, battening down hatches... tasting the wine that stays in the hoses, cuz it ain't gonna go anywhere but down the drainhole... it's a gas..harvest has started, but i'm not there much these past few days. harvest party sat nite, though. the drinking thread may need a post from me... i'm not supposed to drink on the neurontin/wellbutrin cocktail. so the question is: how to get totally blasted on the great wine there, and manage to drive myself back to town (25 min drive)... i'm a quiet drunk, and a good driver no matter what vices i've partaken in... and the back roads home through the forest are unpoliced. gotta figure out whether it's worth it or not, somehow.
otherwise, have at last finished the short piece for the local paper on childhood AD/HD, how to help parents deal with it, etc. it was too short to say too much, but i can probably do another follow-up piece, like: how to help them at school, etc., adolescents, adults w/AD/HD...
the weirdest thing happened. as soon as i finished the thing yesterday, i went into this crazy hypomanic state for several hours. it was soooo weird. like finishing something i'd put off, then bulldozing on it for two days due to the deadline... it must've pushed me over. i had a glass of vino (i know, wrong!), smoked some pot (wrong again! - it makes me energized), and then watched TV for hours... fell asleep in front of CNN and woke up at 3:00 am. dragged my ass to bed. could NOT sleep, because of a weird humming sound in my skull, which would not go away, even when i pushed my head down into the pillow. had to take .5 mg of a xanax just to get to la-la land, and then of course the alarm rings at 6:40 so i can get up and get the kid to school... slept for 3 hrs this morning after that, though. great! sleep in the day, up at night. sound hypomanic to you? gotta call the shrink, but i'm embarassed, like somehow it's my fault to have gone over the edge a little...
what was with that humming noise in my head? too many hours of TV, something's gotta keep humming when i turn it off? i may have to start another thread on that one. how embarassing...
but, i'm happy my story's getting published next week. it's a big thing for someone who can't meet a deadline if her life depended on it... is that why they call it a 'dead'line?
another childish thing, a petty triumph: all of those nasty people where i used to work can kiss my ass, they'll see my name in the paper, it'll remind them of all the shit they put me through, and they'll see i'm still alive, still kickin', still working...
sorry to ramble, you asked. there's more but i'll save it... keep the thing goin'...
i've been reading your posts, though, and i have to say, you're always spot on (as the brits say) about *every* damned thing. the junk they re-directed over to PSB from the PB board... it made me upset, it really did. we have a very non-argumentative environment over here on PSB, we're all nice to each other. thanks for coming to my aid. you said it better than i ever could... i was not gonna get caught in that morass of posts again, but you sure set it straight... way to go, kelly. feel very close to you somehow...
are you working/writing? not exactly staying out of trouble, though (see drinking thread...)?
write back when you can....
your true friend,
W.
poster:Wendy B.
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