Posted by shelliR on September 16, 2001, at 19:17:06
In reply to Re: Some Implications (long) » shelliR, posted by sweetmarie on September 16, 2001, at 4:59:42
Hi Anna,
> - Do you think that I`m right? About the meds I mean. Everyone I`ve spoken to (admittedly only my sister and parents) think that I am, but what do you think? I`d really like to know.Yes, I definitely think you are right, that medication cannot completely shield you from real life pain. And in addition, you have had some major changes: getting out of the hospital, parents leaving, and now going to a program that doesn’t feel right for you. Changes definitely bring out vulnerabilities, and since ours is depression, that is what is going to be affected.
I think you will probably return to the baseline at which you left the hospital, but I don’t know if that is good enough. This is where I am not sure how direct to be, but you wanted an honest opinion., right? You’ve been on this combination a fairly long time now; there's a point, after about six weeks to eight weeks, when the benefit pretty much stays the same (at least doesn’t go up) and that is the time to evaluate whether these meds are right, or whether you should be adding or changing something . It is hard for me to understand how after all that time, they would discharge you with only a marginal benefit (at least that’s the impression I would get from you during your weekend posts). I hope that I have misunderstood and that you *were* feeling quite a bit better during your time in the hospital, in which case, yes, you *can* expect to get back up there. In any case you will see a doctor in October (right?) and medication changes can also be made outpatient , of course.
re: your program
I am used to advocating for myself my whole life and in the US if you advocate for yourself, you *do* get further (although if your health insurance is "managed care" here, there is often not much you can do.) So maybe this is not the right place for you and they should be looking around and finding something better suited. And maybe you need to fight for this. You should not be in a program with all psychotic patients—that would not be of much, if any benefit to you. Please try not to identify--you are not psychotic; you are depressed. (Maybe there are people like you, depressed, and you missed them among the more dramatic illnesses?) In any case, can you go back and talk to the directors, or to the person you are assigned to?re your sister
What is really pissing her off is that she can’t seem to walk down a road/street whatever without getting shouted at by blokes from cars.. She asked me whether or not she should be giving them the `finger`, but I told her under NO circumstancesYou are right about that.; she wouldn’t want it to escalate. I don't know what the guys are saying, obnoxious guy things? If so ,there is really no choice but to ignore. That’s strange especially if they are near a university. She might want to discuss it at the university to see how other girls handle it.
When I am feeling really depressed (like now) it is best to distract myself from the depression. I have a hard time even discussing it. That’s why I send you a card via e-mail. Let me know if you got it; you don’t have to write back until you're in the mood, but just click reply so I know it went to the right place.See now I am a little nervous that I said too much, and said things that may not be helpful to you. That’s why I want to send you fun things.
Take care,
Shelli
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