Posted by Kristi on September 9, 2001, at 14:47:15
In reply to Re: Hey sar..... » Kristi, posted by sar on September 9, 2001, at 1:08:21
Good job..... 4/5 smokes in 2 or 3 weeks? Definatley reason for a glass of Merlot. :-)
Oh.... I can relate to those sharp cravings. I hate to repeat myself.. where I work the smoke is everywhere. That totally sucks. I just try to keep myself busy as hell... and I'm probably making more money for it....on break I stick on one of those little self hypnosis quit smoking tapes in my ol' walkman, and that seems to settle me for the day. For some reason this morning, my day off.. I woke up and keep craving really bad. Besides the hypnosis, which seems to work the best... I hold a piece of liquorice and just suck on it.
And you are so right when you speak of looking at older wrinkly faces. I look at someone my age smoking and I think it looks disgusting.... thats what keeps me going ususally and gets me thru the toughest parts. There are times when I forget I don't smoke..... I'll walk into the bathroom at work and reach into my purse to grab that cig... and it isn't there........ and I have to think, and I get a little sad.... cuz a long lost friend is gone!
Yes.... I do seem to smell it more on other people than I used to. I have also had alot of people tell me "you smell good".... I've always wornthe same perfume, so I know it's not that. Hmmm..... what did I smell like?! :-)
YES...... LETS QUIT!!!!!!!! We can do this. We are tougher than a lousy little f'n stick!!!
I was bulimic in high school. I never wanted to admit it to anyone, and I wanted to get help so eventually I controlled it myself.... without help.. so in a way I have quit something. Doctors tell me now that they are amazed I just came back to without any help.... and if I can do that... this should be a breeze.
What I'm going thru is not helping tho.... that's the problem. I told you all the gross things I have to do right now to the wound..... it would be so much more bearable if I knew I could smoke when it was all over each time? You know what I mean.
I too want to allow myself the occasional.... but I don't think I can do that yet. I think if I were to light up now, I'd start again. Not tough enough quite yet.... hopefully soon... cuz yes, there are times a cig would be so fun!!!!!!
Thanks for the support sar... you can't imagine how much it helps. You hang in there too... altho you seem ok, at least you don't complain as much. :-) Take care.........Kristi
> hey kristi,
> i've had 4 or 5 smokes in the past 2-3 weeks. i've stopped buying herbals, am on step 2 of the patch, and alternate my nicorette with regular gum
> today i had my first sharp craving in quite awhile--cruising down the highway windows down after my dinner-break from work, great music on, had just seen my mom for the first time in a few weeks (mixed feelings), had eaten fabulously--but my gum, klonopin, and work-business made it okay.
> how are *you* doing? you're not allowed any nicotine, right? so no patch or gum? i imagine you're going through a much tougher time than me, plus you smoked longer than i did! shit, girl, i'm feelin for you.
> do you feel cleaner in any way? the other day i spoke with a co-worker after he'd just had a smoke, and he stunk! i mean it didn't bother me, i just knew that i didn't want to smell like that.
> faces, faces. what keeps pushing me most are the women in the sixties i run across with their cigarette-voices and leathery faces...i wanna age as gracefully as possible! so i tell myself, if you're going to drink like this, you can't smoke like that. does the smoke in the casinos disgust you at all? what methods are you currently using to deter yrself from smoking? does the hypnosis still work for you?
> my trick: imagine being 65, with all those vertical wrinkles above your lips, and a voice that sounds like a mean robot or a man. be vain! or imagine being 75 and sucking cigs through a hole in your throat.
> imagine being an old hag coughing stinking looking like an ashtray.
> LET'S QUIT!!!
> i want to allow myself the occasional (fine glass of merlot, after great sex, after expensive gourmet meal, after tragedy) but i never want to be pack-a-day again. ever.
> have you ever given anything up before? i do beleive that humans can be inherently resolving. in preschool i pledged never to suck my thumb again (and didn't). in grade 2 i pledged to stop chompin on my nails (and spent a summer concentrating on quitting). (i guess i felt lots of guilt even as a kiddo!)
> i've heard--correct me if i'm wrong, that it takes 30 days to create a habit, and 90 to break it...we're on the same 2-3 week starter-crux...i know we can do it if we just keep on truckin...