Posted by Kristi on September 7, 2001, at 23:17:19
In reply to eavesdropping » Kristi, posted by sar on September 2, 2001, at 8:45:19
Hi Sar.....
Looks like this has been here for a little while but I didn't see it.
> for the Las Chicas Crew--
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> yall provide the mill-$ lawsuits, i'll score the tequila and weed--(and lots of LIMES! we'll need lots of limes)Dos that sounds good. Lots of LIMES... Yes, more importantly... lots of WEED.... oh, the thought of that is soooooooooooooooooooooooo close to regular "smoking"..... ha ha
>> kristi, ah, physical deformity--this is very little like your case, but i want to share this with you anyway. i had somewhat severe scoliosis as a teeneager; my body curved in an "s" shape to the right. i was always so embarrassed, especially with guys...finally i got the right surgery (and thank god it was covered completely by my dad's military insurance--a spinal surgery like that costs upwards of $20,000--money we don't have) and suddenly i was an inch-and-a-half taller with a foot-long thick scar snaking down my right torso. i always feel i have to explain the scar. of course i do. they ask about it.
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> i can't empathize completely--the breasts are a feminine symbol, and 18 surgeries--oh lawdy--i just wanted to let you know that i have the littlest idea idea of what physical deformity is like--very disheartening. my scar is very thick and pink, ropey, and my best boyfriends have always had sweet things to say about it--"like a river over broken glass," "it makes you look so strong" etc--why are children out of the question because of your breasts?
Wow... I'm sorry for that too!!! So, you can relate somewhat. Well, I consider children out of the question because I am 32.... single... Not looking(my fiancee was killed in a mortorcyle accident) and it'll be a long ass time before any man sees me!!!!!!!!! I just couldn't handle that. I would never be strong enough to handle any kind if rejection related to this. Even say if I was with a dude for a couple months... and he left me for an entirely different reason.. I would always feel it was from the deformatity. I hope that goes away sometime.... it's hard because I haven't been able to put any closure on it and simply allow myself to heal(surgey after surgery.).... I did have a consult with this fantastic surgeon who told me that I'll be able to have reconstructive surgery in about 2 years at most... and he will make me look "amazing". So that gave me hope.
> i learned in my anthropology class that approximately only 3 countries in the world view breasts as sexy. most men in other countries view them simply as maternal.Unfortunately... this country is one that considers them sexy. Ive actually had boyfriends since this happened. I have my little ol water bra that I wear and you can't tell a thing is wrong with me..... but once that date gets to that point... I quickly make up an excuse and never answer my phone again. I'm so afraid once they see what's underneath they will run!
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> shit, i don;t think this is going to help. i'm feeling for you, kristi. i don't know what to say, so i'll quit saying stoopid things, except one more--do you think that, with the lawsuit money, you'll be able to hire on an expert surgeon?You are helping!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Really. And yes, I do see a little light at the end of the tunnel. It'll take a expert surgeon, a lot of money, and a lot of waiting..... but hopefully... god hopefully..... I pray so much I can look normal again.
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> love
> sar
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