Posted by Anna Laura on June 30, 2001, at 7:43:02
In reply to What is This?? Anybody?, posted by tina on June 29, 2001, at 9:40:40
> Morning all
> I'm going to try to explain this but it doesn't make much sense to me so I should imagine that it won't to you either but here goes:
> Every morning for the past 2 weeks, I've woken up with this weird sense that I'm still asleep and dreaming. I have been having disruptive daydreams when awake that terrorize me all the time. I can't think. These images just seem to come into my head and give me a sense of dread and impending doom and I get anxious and have a raging panic attack. This morning I almost fainted. i got so dizzy and scared. I feel like I'm really losing it. Talk about your unreality! It's very overwhelming to feel that you can't stop the thoughts and images from taking over. I see flashes like images under a strobe light. They aren't coherant but I know they terrify me. I don't know what this is?
> I have panic disorder but this isn't like any panic attack I've had before. These make me feel like I'm really going to go mad and be carted away. Does anyone have an explanation better than this? Do you know what this is?
> I'm really worried
> thanks
> tinaHi Tina,
I think i know what you're talking about. I've suffered from this strange discomforting "problem" since i was a child.
It occured very rarely though (two or three times a year).
I've read somewhere that it's connected to temporal lobe discharges (it might be a benign form of epilepsy). My sister is epileptic, what about your family/realtives?
Even if they were quite infrequent, i can recall those "crisis" very vividly. It's difficult to explain, I'm aware that this is going to sound kind of funny, but i'll try to describe it anyway.
Well, these "crisis" occured every time as soon as i woke up: it was like the proportions of "things" (objects, sounds and even more immaterial things like thoughts) were growing "abnormal".
I wasn't hallucinating though: it wasn't a visual thing but rather a perception-kind-of-thing . it was like my body perception "grew" wider and wider and all of a sudden i was big as the whole house : sometimes only small parts of my body "grew " bigger. (do you recall Alice in Wonderland when she ate the magic mushroom and all of a sudden her neck got stretched and grew higher and higher so that she reached the top of the trees?). This perception would switch abruptly, feeling my body growing smaller and smaller , ending up feeling like a tiny little bug. It was scary, and worst thing of all, i felt like i was paralyzed, could barely move: this horrible thing would crush me down. One morning a try to sing a song and it went away. Later on i found out that i could control it a little bit by reciting a poem, catching a piece of paper and writing anything down or by calculating (doing addictions etc...).
Sometimes sounds were twisted; other times perception of objects in my bed-room grew bigger and bigger up to the point they would "fit" the whole bed-room.... i know, it's hard to explain, hope it didn't sound too weird/difficult to understand.
Well, this is my experience so far....
poster:Anna Laura
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