Posted by sar on June 26, 2001, at 19:57:09
In reply to Re: To Kingfish - re: BPD, BP etc Biochemistry, posted by AMenz on June 23, 2001, at 12:22:20
Friday night I got a little bit drunk and called the police to give me a ride to a mental hospital. EMS and 2 cops cars showed up, I was so embarrassed because I hadn't *done* anything, I just felt tired of being so damn suicidal all the time. I didn't need an EMS truck and 5 people shining flashlights into my eyes, yo. I just wanted a safe ride to a place I could go w/ no insurance and no money. They didn't understand that I was suicidal. I'm 23 and clean and decent looking and in my pajamas, just drunk. I felt happy to see them, I felt better. I flirted w/ the cop and asked him lots of questions about his job and his family, kept him laughing, felt it was the least I could do for wasting his time in such a large crime-ridden city on a Friday night.
They took me to a relatively swank hospital where I stayed prozax, xanaz, and Tripleman and hung out w/ the most wonderful people for 4 days. I didn't want to leave but I had to 'cos I can't pay their $900/day rate (!!!).
Diagnoses, man! The admitting doctor felt sure that I was bipolar, the "mixed state" kind. Another doc felt sure that I was only depressed--and get this yall--when I said i thought maybe I was borderline he said, "Half of all white girls qualify for borderline personality disorder" and suggested I stop this self-absorption and poetic histrionics.
Now I feel really confused, o should I maybe just toss these BPD books I've obtained? It seems like mental patients on the web take mental illness more seriously than some of the hardliner psychs I've seen (ahh...some want you to spending hours rehashing your "trauma" and talking of "guilt and shame" while others have the get-the-fuck-over-it attitude.)
what to think, what to think...?!
Nikki, if you're reading this, come to Texas if you want to be hosptitalized. (Wish that were possible, eh?!) Texas aint great for a lot of things, but they treated me right there--I'm sure I gained 5 lbs from the food and I still feel docile as a little lamb from all the xanax.
love,
sar
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