Posted by shelliR on May 7, 2001, at 22:24:03
In reply to What is my major malfunction?, posted by 1love on May 1, 2001, at 20:28:47
Giving up compulsive behavior is generally not a a rational decision. Even though you say you have high self esteem and that it doesn't affect your relationship with others, it still seems it is something that does get it your way. I am an artist also, and a total perfectionist in my work, but it doesn't pertain to other areas of my life. (For instance my house is quite messy--too messy)
I think you can try to treat your compulsive behavior without giving up your perfectionism and creativity in your art. I have taken an anti-depressant my whole adult life (for major depression; I don't have OCD) and it has not affected my work in any negative sense. But it has to be the right medication. I have tried medications that have made me not feel basically like me, and I gave up on them quite quickly.
Also, there is cognitive therapy, where you can work on specific thoughts and actions you want to give up.
So, I guess in my long-winded way, I am saying that you should not be afraid of seeking help, either by meds or therapy, because they could make your life a whole lot easier without giving up what is important to you.
shelli
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