Posted by willow on April 4, 2001, at 21:28:18
In reply to I'm sorry-Noa and others, posted by mair on April 4, 2001, at 19:08:21
"... and I've been able to less equivocally promise my therapist that I'll be there for the next session and that I'll call her if i think I'm going to hurt myself. She seems to be happy enough with that for the time being."
Mair your post brought back memories for me though they are vague. I was still a teen-ager living on my own and one evening I took up my psychologists offer and called her. I can remember sitting up in the windowsill of my kitchen and the feelings I was having. I remember her bringing me to the hospital and myself making a feeble attempt of apologizing for ruining her evening. From there it got better.
There wasn't a bed on the pediatric floor so I stayed on the cardiac wing. I had a hard time getting to sleep even with a sedative so finally in the wee hours of the night a nurse rubbed my back, better than any pill. I spent the weekend talking with other patients much older than myself. I can't remember the conversations but they did help me feel better. I left Monday morning so I wouldn't miss work.
The only negative part was that they kept wanting to take blood tests. The previous time I was hospitalized I spent a week and they took so many of them that they had to keep poking places that had already been poked.
Anyway what I had realized that weekend that these feelings pass. I do still get them and it's not pleasant, but like a stubbed toe I know it'll pass and when it does it's like a stubbed toe, forgotten! Sometimes it feels really good to lean on someone!!
Best Wishes
Willow
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