Posted by Dubya on March 20, 2001, at 21:28:57
Am I the problem or do I have the problem? That's why I ask how do I know if my AD is working or not.
Last night, I had a weird thought which I'd never really carry out but, visualized being hung. Oh yeah and the ongoing thoughts of jumping off an office tower. Hmm, the weird part is, I have no intentions of hurting myself. On my wrists, I have a few surface cuts from an exacto knife blade. Weirdly(thankgoodness), I didn't dare dig deep enough into the vein. Even more weird is, I don't want scaring but yet look what I am doing.
I am hoping my anti-dep (AD) Clomipramine being an anti-Bulimic, Anti-OCD, Anti-dep., anti-Anxiety will stop me from doing this. Oh last point, the Clomipramine has made me experience vivid dreams at night. I'd rather have these dreams than suffer from my "problems" so I will stick to my AD. On a better note, I am getting a dog on Thurs afternoon, my 1st.
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