Posted by Todd on February 3, 2001, at 22:14:22
In reply to Re: drones and non drones » Phil15, posted by allisonm on February 3, 2001, at 20:44:15
I agree with so much of what you say, Allison. And I get your drift too, Phil. I just wonder, along with DJ, if you are being a bit "superior" here. Most likely you're not consciously, but subconsciously that feeling that you have so far in your life "worked out" this much can make you come off as feeling superior. It's so very easy to project that, we've all done it. It feels GREAT. You spoke about you and your friend driving the drones crazy - what about gently enlightening them? You're creating negative energy. If what makes you feel great alienates you from others, then not only is it not so great after all, but you start to turn off people that could really benefit from your point of view. Your wisdom becomes useless, because you have turned yourself into an island. Which is half the cause of depression, as far as I am concerned. We're all interconnected, and really cannot exist inside and outside of society at the same time. We all affect each other's lives constantly. Infinitely.
Going back to the drone theory, I really think that drones are the weaker people. People with depression are much stronger, I believe. Which is not to say that people who suffer depression are the only stronger ones. We are all the same deep down inside, all wonderfully beautiful and whole in our imperfections. Problem is, drones are terrified of their imperfections. Have any idea why? It would make them Horribly Depressed! Drones can't handle that kind of introspection, because the fear of finding something horrible would literally crush them. So instead of acknowledging their imperfections, they live their lives in a state of denial, trying to make themselves look good and projecting their own insecurities onto everyone else. Nothing they do is passionate or exciting because they have cut themselves off from their own core. They seem happy to us and look happy to us, but they really aren't. It's a shallow and fear-based happiness.
Depressed people, on the other hand, are more than willing to acknowledge their own imperfections. Problem with us is that we also accept the ones projected onto us by the drones! That's what continues the negative feedback loop. We believe the drones, and we don't believe in ourselves. We are so much stronger for having the guts to go inside ourselves and to feel our pain deeply. We think and feel so much more deeply than the drones, and are very in touch with our core. But we keep believing that the core is rotten, because we accept the reality perpetuated by the drones. We keep trying to love ourselves and be ourselves in all of our imperfections, but that scares the hell out of the drones. It reminds them of their own dark side that they are too terrified to confront. They insist that everything is great and wonderful, and we keep believing it. We accept that life should be perfect, and drive ourselves further into depression because of our failure to achieve that "perfectness." We hold on to the belief that there shouldn't be pain in our lives, and keep invalidating ourselves as we try to crawl out of our misery.
What we have to discover, and once discovered, remember, is that we ALL hurt, we ALL suffer. Every single person who walks this planet. And it's all completely natural and perfectly HUMAN. We all have to reconnect to our core and allow ourselves to feel our pain in a loving way. I really believe that as we each get better at this, we can allow others in our lives the same space. With perserverance, what you'll find is not a rotten core at all, but a wonderfully beautiful one that was put on this earth to shine brightly. Aren't we all wounded healers anyway?
Peace and love.Todd
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