Posted by CarolynAnn on January 30, 2001, at 20:26:47
In reply to Re: Damned pdoc...., posted by Greg on January 30, 2001, at 18:08:57
Nikki...
I know exactly how you feel. I often find myself telling my pdoc that I feel better than I really do. This is totally stupid for me, because when I really feel bad, I actually sometimes feel like I want to go into the hospital, but I'm afraid that he'll think I'm making stuff up...that I'm a hypochondriac. Is this dumb or what??? I know the times I was in hospital several years ago it was hard to come home. Not that home is bad...actually I have a wonderful husband, a nice house and I did miss my dogs, but it was so much easier to be in there and have no responsibilities and feel safe. So I guess now I feel guilty if I think about going in because I think I'm just wanting to do it to avoid stuff and feel safe. But is feeling safe really so bad? Anyway, I ramble on...but it is very hard for me to tell him the truth, and I don't think it would be any different with a different doctor. I think it's just me...I'm afraid of being judged. And then sometimes when you are really depressed it's hard to express how bad you feel...or even to be able to judge your own feelings intelligently. Anyway...good luck, I'm pulling for you!
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