Posted by mars on January 25, 2001, at 11:42:39
In reply to How Messed up am I?, posted by tina on January 25, 2001, at 10:27:18
hey Tina ~
All I can say is that for me it came in waves, lots of numbness interspersed with tears. I went through every one of those stages of grief that they talk about, and all my friends who have been through it have too.
It was tricky, balancing that it's a big thing and trying to give myself a lotta credit for that, but without getting so lost in the bigness that I gave up.
thinking of you,
mary
> You know, I've been sitting here wondering if I'm just in denial or if I'm really ok with my current situation. How do you know if you're in denial or just shoving your feelings down so far that they just don't seem to impact on you?
> I shake constantly but that's been going on for a decade at least.
> I'm not suicidal right now. I actually feel absolutely nothing. It's very strange. I don't know whether it's good to feel nothing or bad?
> Just so confused. And so alone.
> T
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